As I worked in my studio today the house was quiet, no music, no television, all alone and my mind was on autopilot with free association memories playing through my head. Suddenly my mind stopped on a memory like a marble on a roulette wheel. As the memory, like the marble, bounced to rest in my head I could feel the blood rush to my cheeks. I felt the constriction of my throat muscle that paralyzes my vocal cords during uncomfortable moments. My thoughts stopped on an embarrassing moment I experienced years ago. I was physically and emotionally reliving the moment as if it had just happened. It only lasted for a moment but it lead me to wonder why I had such an intense reaction to the memory. Then I realized that I have just as intense emotional responses to all of my memories. Sad memories make me cry, happy memories make me smile, funny memories make me laugh out loud; so why shouldn't an embarrassing moment make me blush? Silly me.
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